Trying to move forward one step at a time

[StrongEnough]

Always (((((HUG)))))

It sounds like you are still on that emotional roller coaster. You need to decide whether or not to stay on for the ride, or get off.

I agree with WCW, stop the daily R talks. We BOTH know what efffect that has on our spouses, our M and our PMA.

AS far as the phone, the telling friends about your sitch, etc. I think you have every right to doubt and question. You say that you trust him, but you still doubt. You aren't wrong for that. He may not like it, but it was his lying that created this doubt and he has to deal with that.

I think the meditation and the reading to create positive feelings is a great idea. Anything that is going to help you recenter yourself. And venting here is the best and safest place to do so.

I hope today is a better day/night for you. One backslide shouldn't erase everything you worked so hard for up to now. Its a little set back, but it doesn't necessarily put you back at square 1. Don't beat yourself up. It happens to everyone.

~SE