Tried to hold onto the peace today--had some difficulty and tumbles at the end of the day (I find that I am mostly positive right up until the hour I come home, hmmmm). I started to think negative and allowed myself to do so for a little bit. I also thought of all the nasty things I did, and that calmed my negative feelings down, got me out of the slump. We BOTH have to move forward, and I can't stop doing my part. Got a package from ILs today, and that really didnt' set me off as much as I thought (maybe because it actually HAD MY NAME on it, so they are not ignoring me and actually realize that I am STILL their son's W!!!!!).
Nice to see a trigger that did not do much. Maybe I'm getting a hold on this peace thing? Detachment? Whatever....well, one day at a time.....let's not get too ahead of ourselves.
H isn ot home tonight, we're having dinner with a friend, that should be nice. I will try my best to be positive, but not too clingy, etc. Just normal, balanced.
