lol not so great today, went to her house and talked to her about how much hit hurts to see her and be with her without really being with her. She said she understands and that she still loves me, she just cant be a wife to me right now, and I lost it, tears all over the place.
She does have a point, that if she really thought about it that I am now the man she wanted for years, and not that A-hole I was it would drive her crazy. Why now am I that way? Well I grew up thats why and im just hoping she grows up and understands how much I love her.
She does not understand why I still love her, she told me today I deserve so much better then her. I have a feeling that she really went off the deep end and did things I really dont want to know about.
Well ill just try to stay even keeled for now and let time go on I guess.
