Yea snodderly, I think she is so full of guilt that she goes out and self medicates and gets more guilt for that, its like a catch 22 with her now. The more guilt she feels the more I think she goes out and tries to feel better.
I have seen the guilt, I have confronted her with a few lies she has told me over the last 2 months, now those lies were to try to save my feelings but boy when I did say something she turned into a Bi*ch fast. I could see the pain in her eyes. With her history of sexual abuse, its just a mess in her head right now.
Im patient, its only been 7 months so far and im not going to walk away from a 21 year relationship for 7 month of insanity. But I do have to really start detaching myself from her as much as I can. The sex we had has almost stoped, I say almost hehe I do have my weak moments but nowhere near what it was a few months ago.
To me snodderly the divorce is just paper, really does not mean as much as I thought it would. We do talk everyday, heck sometimes 5 times aday and I do see her almost everyday. Good thing is I see my daughter almost everyday to.
One weird thing she told me at dinner the other night was "When I get married again its not going to be in the corthouse its going to be in Vegas" I said I hope you invite me and she said "I was talking about us silly". Weird hu lol
