If you want to go, then go. I can't stop you and more than that, I want you to now. Go be with the wonderful new friends and man you enjoy so much. Leave us behind. I will care for the boys and give them twice the love you have given them over the past 5 years! We don't F@##ing need you. We don't want you. Things are SO great out there for you right now, it would be a damn shame for you to miss out on that. I will send you pictures of the kids as they grow up into men and espouse the values of love, honor, commitment and honesty I will instill in them, qualities you do not have. I do not hate you. I pity you. I pity that you don't realize what you have. You can't even bring yourself to take the risk of us. That's truly sad. I do wish you well on your journey. Talk to a lawyer, get the papers and I will sign them that day.