Husband, I never thought I would reach this place in my heart. For some reason, that I do not quite understand just yet, God placed you in my life. I have loved you and hated you and everything in between. The most intensive emotions of my life have been wrapped around you in some way.
I have been fond of saying and believing that everything happens for a reason. After all this, I still believe that.
If there was some way, I truly wish I could save you from yourself. I know that is not possible. Knowing that doesn't take the hurt away of watching you self-destruct.
I thank you for the 3 wonderful sons you have given me. It breaks my heart that you really don't know them. I will take to my grave the regret that I chose you for their father. I hope they will forgive me for that. I hope I can forgive myself someday.
I know your choice to leave me was something you had to do for yourself. I know you didn't set out to hurt me or destroy your family. You would have to actually think about someone other than yourself to have those feelings. However, what you inadvertently did, what you accomplished without even trying is.....you gave me back my life.
And for that, I thank you.
Your wife
Always do right. This will gratify some people, and astonish the rest. Mark Twain
