Where's my pot of gold?

[StrongEnough]

Well, today has begun. It is pretty much the same as every other day. H is in a deep depression, but he is still trying. No matter how much we "push each other" in our little pushing match, he comes right back and tries.

H has me thinking. What if I am the one in MLC? Maybe it's all me, not him. Or am I just getting caught up in his roller coaster of emotions? I can see that I am getting caught up in his depression, or rather, letting it affect me. I am void of energy and desire to do anything. There is so much that needs to be done, and that I want to do, but I would rather just sit here with my misery company and wallow in it. <sigh> I had made so much progress with my depression and anxiety, and now I feel like I am back at the beginning.

It's so easy to come on these boards and give out solid advice telling people to detach, not to let their S's actions/words/emotions take them away from working on themselves, but here I am not even able to take my own advice. Which then brings me full circle to maybe I am the one in crisis here, not my H.

~SE stuck in the "Land of Confusion"