Quote: How long did you say you separated for? Did you feel that it was too soon to move back together again? did you need more space? Do you need it now?
Well, we were seperated for a little over a year. One month before we got back together, he was telling OW that he loved her. So, one month later when he told me he loved me and wanted to work things out, I felt that he was again being impulsive. After about five days of seeing each other, he wanted to move back in. I wasn't ready but like I said I didn't have nerve to speak up against it. I originally told him I would like to give it at least six months or so to see how we do before moving back in together. He initially (for like 2 days) agreed. I think I needed more space then, and I know I need it now. Seperation now isn't an option because I won't toy with my kid's emotions like that.
So, yes, I am living with yo-yo emotions from H. Still on the roller coaster. He is reading the ATA book and struggling with it. He is just quiet and withdrawn today. My C got canceled because my C is sick, and he has to go later on today. So, he is bound to come back even more gloomy.
I think that maybe I am detaching. Considering I am suppose to be reconciling, I guess that really isn't a positive move. I guess deep down I must feel threatened or too unsure because of his constant changing emotional state and detaching is now a natural reaction for my own preservation.
I'm glad you were able to get something out my miserable post!!! We do have a lot to learn from each other here.
So for now, I guess I will just plug on and wait and see what happens. I go to the gym tonight for that study program, that should make me feel a little better if I start that. I am feeling liek quite the fat @ss since the surgeries and I have put on about 18 pounds from inactivity from the months of healing. I want to be back to my 118 pounds that I was so happy at for a long, long time!!!! I will do it, it is just going to take time, like everything else.
~SE
I'm moving on...at last I can see...life has been patiently waiting for me.
Me-32 WAH-35 DD-11 DS-4 H left 11-03 Piecing- 12/04 WAH again- 03/07 Married 12 years Divorce final May 15, 2007
