Where's my pot of gold?

[StrongEnough]

Hi Always...

But, the email---WOW!!! That's amazing. Isn't that what you've been wanting, in a way?

No, not really. Everything he put in that email he has said to me time and time again. Then, he switches his feelings and says he can't do this anymore, blah, blah, blah.

Some days he tries, other days he doesn't. One day it seems like he gives it all he has, then other days he pulls far, far away. I know that's probably par for the course, but he keeps pushing me further and further away. I am just not sure how much further away he can push me before it's too far.

So, yes, these are positives, but there are alwys more negatives then positives. And eventually he just throw it in my face that he gave up his needs for a couple days, weks whatever and still got nothing.

I have kissed him more, etc. I reminded him of that and he totally blew it off.

I am disgusted and frustrated and ready to just say f$#* it. I can say that, and still feel good about myself and still retain my confidence. So, I don't know what that means, whether it's good or bad.

Gotta run out for a bit, will catch up on your sitch when I get back.

~SE