Where's my pot of gold?

[StrongEnough]

AK...thanks for dropping in! Sorry if you had to read anything that was a rude wake-up call, but the reality is that reconciling IS hard. Continuing to work on yourself for now is a great plan. I am so sorry that your D is coming up soon. Remember, we're all here for you.

Always...LOL. Were you drinking those beers again last night??? Thanks for the affirmation on the PMA.


Last night H and I had a backslide (Always, I think we are starting to get in sync and jinxing each other!) For some reason H grabbed my cell phone and started scrolling through all the phone calls. There was one from the state that OW lives in. He got very flustered and jumped on me for it. I told him that I had been getting wrong numbers and hang-ups. So, I clicked on the number to show the time for the phone call and it said 24 seconds. He got really angry and said it wasn't a hang up and accused me of talking to OW's XH. (In the past, we have spoken and exchanged information) I offered to let him call the number and find out who it was. He said "No, I am not starting sh!t with that situation again" So insistant that is was her X. I googled the number, and he did a search as well, and the name came back as someone neither one of us know. H still really didn't believe me. He said that information could be old and inaccurate. Then he was upset with me because he couldn't understand why I was angry and hurt.

I guess I just don't like the way the whole thing went down. He always asks me to give him the benefit of the doubt and when push comes to shove, he isn't willing to do the same for me. First off, what can be said in 24 seconds? Secondly, he has been on this site. Not that I have anything to hide, but I feel like he is always standing over my shoulder waiting for me to do something "questionable" in his mind. I told him that he can read the boards, but it is a place to vent and share thoughts openly and that I knew he would read things that would be hurtful to him. (My reference to x/bf)

Despite this, my PMA is still pretty darn good today. It's not as high as it was the past few days, but it isn't as low as it has been this past year. So, I am making progress and I am happy about that.


Thought for the day...."This too shall pass"

~SE