Where's my pot of gold?

[sage]

And I always have my cell with me. But, like H told my counselor, how does he know I am not meeting my ex-bf at the mall with my mom. To me, is sounds ludicrous. <snip> He has also questioned me a couple times if I would have an A for revenge. I was like WHAT???? I guess it's discouraging that we have been together for so long and sometimes I still don't understand his thought process.

Gosh, which part don't you understand? Seems to me your h is saying "I really screwed up and I know you have other options. I'd like some reassurance that you're not going to be unfaithful to me because of what I did to you."

And right now, whatever ambivalence you are communicating to him is making him wonder...but your above paragraph seems pretty clear that you don't plan to cheat on him. Have you told him that?

Sage