You know.......I have to say that I find it very easy to go to the newcomer's forum and give advice. I guess because they are on a path that I have traveled before. I find that I can't really find any encouraging advice for anyone in pieceing. Because it's new to me I suppose. (even though we have been back together for over a year)
But I find posting to other people theraputic in a way. It has really helped my anxiety a little. I don't know how or why, just that it has.
I have yet to find my books, so I am a little panicky about that. I have to keep looking or just rebuy them. A lot of it starting to come back to me now.
So, I have set some mini goals for myself. 1) Get my butt on the home gym atleast every other day. On the days I do not do weight/resistance....I will dance to the wiggles with my son. That should count for an hour of exercise (cardio) and dancing is something I enjoy and so does my son and he could loose a few pounds himself. 2) I have been neglecting my appearance for quite some time now. I am a sahm/wahm so this is not too hard to slip into. I will no longer tolerate chipped nail polish! 3) I will do my best to improve my eating habits. Instaead of one meal a day and a night time snack, I will take in more fruit and whole grains during the day and eat a sensible dinner.
These are small goals and right now that is where I need to start. I need to start being "me" and not just being a wife and mother. I need to balalnce the "GAL" with being a mother and a wife. My cousin has been wanting to go out to dinner and have a few drinks like forever. I think I will take her up on the offer for next week and go. I know my H has trust issues with me (even though I didn't cheat, he did...can't figure that one out) but that is something that he is going to have to own. I am tired of feeling like if I go out, I will have consequences and an attitude to deal with.
How does that sound? Any input?
I'm moving on...at last I can see...life has been patiently waiting for me.
Me-32 WAH-35 DD-11 DS-4 H left 11-03 Piecing- 12/04 WAH again- 03/07 Married 12 years Divorce final May 15, 2007