Wow thanks for the info about counseling. I don't know how receptive he will be to going, but it is worth a shot. As for his frequency of mbing, I don't know how often. I honestly don't think it is that frequent. But I do plan on trying to look for signs. We have seperate computers so I can't just check if he is still checking out web-sites. He said that he only looks at the porn once every couple months or so. It is very frustrating because it is hard to tell how much of what he says is honest and I am just paranoidly disbelieving, and how much is possible lies to save his bacon. During different conversations, he has said very comforting things. Such as, he is not the type of person to waste time with someone whom he didn't consider to be the whole package. And as we are not married, but looking to be, it does seem rediculous for a man to marry someone whom he is not attracted to. I have recently found out that I have general anxiety disorder, have always known that I have serious problems with anxieties, fears, stress, and such. Not to mention have been talking to family members and have found out it runs in both sides of my family. So I am also trying to figure out how much of my fears are based on reality, and how much are just true paranoia. I do believe that alot of my concerns are based on reality, but am trying to figure out if I have let them get out of control I can't wait to start getting help for my anxiety, hopefully it will make things alot clearer and less distressing with me and BF.
