I just want to thank both of you for responding. It does make me feel better to think I am not completely crazy for hanging in there. As you all I am sure know, if you talk to fam/friends, their first responses are leave the jerk, you deserve more. But I have learned that no matter who I am with, there will be problems, and you can't leave everyone. It has made me feel so much better that him masturbating rather than turning to me is something that other LD's have done. I guess I worried that it was the "kiss of death". When we talked about the porn he flatly dismisses them as unrealistic and that he knows the difference between reality and fantasy. I guess it is just hard to believe that sometimes. I have definitely been thinking about counseling lately, but neither of us has any money for it, we are both college students starting over in life. But I do have the wonderful blessing that he is willing to talk and deal with the issues that come up in our relationship.
