Yes, your experience taught YOU that the ILY's may never get to be said, but that's YOUR experience. Like Frank said, and so did I before the fact, you CAN'T read into ANYTHING these days. You can't try to figure out if that last ILY was the one that meant "we're back together now and OM is out of the picture." As much as I keep letting my emotions run loose, you keep forming expectations. In that, we're a little different. I think I have managed to cancel all expectations that me and my W will ever be back together. I am not negative, nor positive, I just don't form thoughts about it. It's really hard, but I THINK I have managed to do it....for now. You just need to do like Frank said and let go. The fact is that you are still dealing with her as if she's living in YOUR world that YOU create in your head. She is in HER world that SHE creates in HER head. You have nothing to do with it. It's really hard to understand that when they occupy so much of our hearts and minds, but it's the truth. I hope we don't sound harsh, because I really understand where you are. I'm there much of the time too. Keep the chin up and get through this.
