Just put the kids to bed, and I am a little depressed and actually angry! The kids and I had a great day! Played in the backard this morning, went to the waterpark this afternoon, had McDonalds for dinner, and a cuddly bedtime! The bummer is my wife wasn't here to enjoy it. Not her fault becasue of her exam,but we really have not had any family time since the seperation. The time alone with the kids just brought back a ton of bad memories when we actually seperated and living in 2 different cities! It was not only tough on us, it was worse on the kids! I don't want that to happen again! This is the depression part. The angry part was she never even called to say good nite to the kids! I thought she would at least do that! High expectations I guess! She is going out tonite to celebrate the conclusion of her exams, so maybe I am wrong for thinking this way! I got even angrier because my 4yr daughter was esking if the same questions when we were seperated...Is mommy coming home, we are a family aren't we, I miss Mommy! It makes me angry that my wife would do this again to our kids...she has not left, and I will do everything possible to give her no reason to leave again! I finally broke down and called her and had the kids leave a message on her cell phone wishing her good nite and we miss you. I just said "Have a god time tonite, let loose, and have some fun you deserve it. Love you!" Am I weak or what? Who knows? Man thinking way too much and the mind plays evil tricks on you...I just thought I would not put it past her to have the OM come up to help her celebrate.....STOP SIGN! Time to clean the house or something fun like that to take my mind off things!
Tim
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