I feel I am almost at the end of my rope! Well she has made it very clear where we stand after her telling me last nite she just wants to be friends right now! This morning we talked more and it was like going in a circle again.... me:I am hurt W: I don't want to hurt you but I need to figure things out this is not fair to you! You deserve better! me: we can figure things out, and if you need time and want me to be just friends I will. But we have come so far to start over again. I love you and I want to be your husband. W: You just keep pressuring me I need to sort things out in my head, and stop depending on you!
Anyways that is the basic conversation we had until just before she left the house , and she wasn't wearing her new wedding rings we just got! She noticed I saw and told me to stop analyzing her! I said how can I not say anything! She told me she does not want to wear them while she is figuring things out! she only wants to wear them when things are sorted out in her head, and she is ready to move forward in our realationship! I thought when we first seperated the pain was intense, but this tops it all! We start to recouncil and then it starts all over again! They way we left it was I told her I will always be her friend, and I am still her husband....and at the end of all this she can have one or the other or hopefully she decides to have both! She came over hugged me and the kids, gave me a token kiss on the check, and then said I love you and left for school! I am completely devestated right now! In my previous postings I wanted to look at the glass being half full, but it feel empty right now!
Tim
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