Not so happy as predicted. He knew my bday was 9-2 but didn't realize it was today. I am sad and celebrating myslef. I don't know what I did to deserve this. His b-day was in May and I didn't forget.
There do seem to be many good signs in your situation. I know we have to keep those expectations at zero but have you thought about what your new name might be when you are no longer afraid?
Have a lovely day, and an even better year
Jaybeexxxx
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
Just wanted to update.
He seems to still be doing fine. So I am still hoping he completed his journey this time.
Still working on the house. The other one won't be ready til maybe July now. They just excavated last week.
I am hopeful things will work out.
Afraid, Where have you been? It was so nice to see your thread this morning. I've missed chatting w/you. How are you and the children doing? From your posting, it sounds like things are moving along at a nice slow pace. That's good. The slower, the better. I know that you would love to have things go at a faster pace, but sometimes "slowing" down the process a bit works better.
I'm glad to see you are building a new home. That's absolutely wonderful. I've very happy for you. It looks like the new year will be a good one for you and your family.
I know that you are busy, but do stop in from time to time to let us know how you are doing. Don't forget to take some time for yourself this year!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
I have just been overcoming some things for myself. I was absorbed in work and not getting much done. I was doing a lot of time in for no compensation. I am now looking to find a new job. One that pays so I feel like I am accomplishing something. I am going to be selling my home soon but after that I need to move on. It is too draining. I didn't leave the house much in Nov. and started thinking maybe there was something going on with me now.It is a lot to try and finish this house. I am doing much better just taking one day at a time. H is so different that 2 years ago. He seems so much more attentive. He wants to do things with me so much of the time. He rarely if ever goes anywhere alone. He has been looking for my S(14) now to do things with him also. Sometimes I just feel so smothered but I figure I better go along since I don't want to drive him back in his journey.
Afraid, Are you okay? Do you feel like you may be slipping into depression? You do realize that you fought the mlc battle for quite a while and now things are moving along at a nice pace. Could it be that you feel that there's nothing left to worry/fight about w/mlc? Could it be that you are starting to realize that you need some time for yourself?
Talk to us.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Afraid, Make an appointment and go see your physician. It sounds like something is going on--depression. Don't delay this appointment. Okay?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
It is funny but I see it from the side that I may need help, but can see how it is easy to ignore it. I find it easier to just self medicate with alcohol lately and ignore. I wanted H to do something about his depression, but now why don't I face what might be happening?
I was very glad to see that you posted an update, but I am also worried about you. snodderly makes a good suggestion, can you go talk to a doc about the way you're feeling? It could be as simple as getting a little something to smooth out your sleeping patterns . . . while alcohol seems to help make you sleep, it actually winds up interrupting your sleep and decreasing the quality of sleep. I have a friend who had twins last summer, she gets verrrry little sleep, her body finally crashed over the holidays when she got a bad tummy virus, and her doc gave her some Ambien 'til she could get enough sleep to feel a little better -- even after one good nite's sleep she couldn't believe how great she felt, not just physically, but emotionally too. Just be sure if someone prescribes sleep meds to follow the directions very carefully.
Oh yeah, and don't neglect your eating and fluids, either. Amazing how you can get into bad habits and how the effects creep up on you.
Happy Birthday Afraid! 