I wanted to stop by I have't had much time a lot lately to post. It is amazing how you find the time when you feel so unsure and don't do anything else. I use to run here so frequently for answers. Maybe it's a good sign. I have been sick all week and thought it was the flu because my only symptoms were fever and ache. Turns out it was a huge bladder infection and low potassium levels, which they said could of masked the systems of the infection. H took me to the medical center Thursday after my fever hit almost 104. He seems to be going along just fine and that is why this whole thing is just so strange to me he seems to be fine then he stops and goes where he left off. He is spending his time at home and with the kids. He is going to work meetings regularly, which he never really did. I know he is since my brother and a friend is there he would lie since I could find out. I have no reason to suspect him other than him have done a 360 from when I came here. Then he told me he didn't see spending his life with me and he did know how long he would be here. Now he is talking about buying vacation property and using it for weekends too, he keeps telling the kids his motorcycle is for him and me.(I don't like them). I mean he is planning future activities for "us". He tells me he loves me from no where. I am just nervous he is going to drop back into his timeline and start acting crazy again and I just don't know where that is.
