Beth, Was off the boards for a while and just caught up on your situation. I feel your pain. I am so sorry as you sound like a wonderful person. Why can't our WAS's see that?
I am going to hijack a little here, sorry, but my H asked me for a D last Saturday night. After a very long conversation he agreed to temporarily postpone mainly because of finances and kids. I am going to a C tonight to try to work on my self. My H under no circumstances wants to work on our marriage so unless some miracle happens a D is probably in my future also.
Keep coming here, I know this place has been a life saver for me. Take Care of yourself