I know you have been struggling to know if you should hang on or not. And now it feels that choice has been taken from you. And I'm sure despite all that has happened, you still feel shocked, betrayed and injustice. I know this is so painful and I am so sorry you are experiencing this Beth. I know you are mentally aware that you don't deserve this. Please also believe in your heart that you don't.
And I've found that believing and knowing I didn't deserve it seemed to make the pain almost more accute. The sense of injustice is so strong and overwhelming.
Beth, this is a hit you weren't prepared for, though you tried to prepare and maybe were as best prepared as you could be. Go through the mourning, let others support you, be gentle on yourself.
When you get up from this one, you will now know that you are going to take a new journey. And you will ready to start planning that journey and living it. And the journey is going to be a challenge at times, and in the end you will feel safe and secure in who you are and in your life.
We are all here for you to help you on your journey and to listen whenever you need us. We do love you.
