Well, I can post a little more now. This mornings conversation started out with us just figuring out the weekend schedule with the kids. H then mentioned he didn't think it was right for him to go on spring break. So, I just said I guess that means you have made a decision. He says yes, he has. He said that it isn't fair to keep me in this position. I told him some day he will regret this day (not good DBing, I know!). Other things were said but it just sounds like he is running. Running away from his responsibilities. Running from having to face up to his mistakes and really work on our M. He can't run forever. All of this will catch up to him. He just sounds like he is spitting out what someone else has told him. Not what is really in his head. Does that make sense? But, I am done riding the rollercoaster. I don't know if he has it in him to really work on our M. He has gone this far so he figures this is his only route. Well, he can go and feel empty with her. Yes, I will hurt. ALOT. I will mourn the end of my marriage and feel sad for losing my hopes and dreams. But, there is a new adventure waiting for me out there. My sweet revenge will be my happiness. I WILL find it. And be a better person in the end. Just keep reminding me of that when I get down!

Thanks to you all for your wonderful support. I'm off to see my mom this weekend with the kids. I'm not going to tell her yet. I want the kids to know before the rest of the family does. Sunday should be interesting. 2 of my nephews have birthdays in January and we are going to the party. H will be there too. It will be tough, but I can do it.

Didn't wear my wedding ring today. The finger feels SO naked. When do you get used to it?

WCB

God grant me the serenity, to accept the things I cannot change, To change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. - Reinhold Niebuhr