Thanks for your words but from them I can tell you don't fully understand my position at all.
It's not simply about "getting over myself"...it's not about simply creating a better experience for myself with or without H.
I have created a better experience for myself in all other areas of life with the exception of a romantic/intimate r with h that I cannot do alone no matter how hard I try somethings gotta come from him and it's not.
does that mean I should leave? I'm not certain and that's the conundrum I find myself in...not happy with h and not sure I'd be any happier without him.
