Hey brava - thanks for checking in. And thanks for that book suggestion...i will definitely look for it. Thats really the one thing that i have been sure of throughout this whole ordeal...that if my H and I did D, i would not make it into some nasty battle. I refused to allow my M to turn into something ugly...i entered into it with love and i was determined to exit it with love, regardless of what my H did to me. It was just something i felt very strongly about...and something my family really couldn't understand...oh well. Hope all is well with you brava - i am going to check in with your thread soon.