Thanks TTS- Its funny, b/c my H used to say that i couldn't have my cake and eat it too (but, it was more in relation to me living in our house when we reconciled)...ironic!
I do believe that my H knows what this is doing to me. He is constantly telling me what a good person i am and that i am special. And i believe he blames himself for my weight loss...oh well, he should. I think he does feel bad or guilty or whatever.
It is difficult to maintain dignity for myself, without pushing my H away. That is the dilemma that i have now in terms of the intimacy issue.
I do try to figure him out and make sense of this. But, i think that most of the time i am thinking with my heart. Thats my problem.
Thanks for checking in...and thanks for the hugs...hugs to you too!
