Thanks hope- Your post made me cry...but, in a good way. I do appreciate you sharing your experience with me...i know it isn't easy to relive all of it...so, thank you. There is a part of me, my head i think, that knows you are right. But, my heart is a whole other story. I guess its just hard to think about stopping that b/c it is just another aspect of our R that would be coming to an end...first living together, then counseling, then dating...you get my drift. And i guess that is scary b/c it means the end is coming closer. But, am i just delaying the inevitable? But, it is hard to separate everything. B/c after we have these interactions, i feel more positive about our sitch. So, i wonder if i am just deluding myself into thinking that it means something significant. I imagine if i have all of these doubts, then i should really listen to them. But, i am terrified. Scared of losing the one thing that i have been sure of for so long. But, what is there, really? Not much. But, then I think that if i stop this aspect, then he will really know what he is missing. Right now, he can't experience that loss b/c there is no loss. Does that make sense? Oh, i don't know.
I feel the same way...like i know you so well. Its amazing, isn't it? How close we can feel to people whom we've never met? I guess its the commonality and shared experiences that bring us all together. And its nice to know that this world isn't as f..ked up as the media makes it out to be. There are plenty of good people out there...too bad society doesn't focus on the good things instead of the bad. But, i guess that's a completely different issue...let me not get philosophical.
So, here's my question...which i asked Sassy about - re: her upcoming visit to our area...can a jersey girl get in on this? I promise i'll leave my big hair at home...lol.
