Hey hope...thanks for checking in. Although i certainly don't wish for you to be feeling lousy, it does help me to know that i am not alone. So, i guess i will be selfish here.
Thanks for your feedback about the intimacy issue too...i appreciate your perspective. There is a part of me that feels like putting an end to it is the right thing to do, since he is giving me nothing else right now. But, then i wonder if i should keep it going as a way of maintaining a connection. Oh, i don't know! Its just so confusing. I mean, does he just think of it as sex? Or something more? And i can't ask him...i think that would be disastrous. Its just that, there are certain aspects of our R that have been maintained and i don't want to cut them all off. But, i also feel like sometimes, i am being used. God, did i just say that? I never thought i would think that, let alone say it out loud. But, if i think that, then doesn't that tell me that something isn't right? It just goes back to me having to make a decision and fearing that it might signal the end. Although, really, what do i have right now? Oh, the second guessing is exhausting. I just want some answer...some resolution. I'm so tired.
