TMU- Thanks for your kind words. It has been a struggle, but i have been at this for a long time (13 months), so i have had a lot of time to digest what is happening. There are times, like you, that i think about life without my H and realize, hey, i'll be okay, it won't be that bad. But, then, when i really, really think about it, i realize, oh, no, i don't want to live without him. Its a daily struggle. But, i will say that we are in a better place now than we were a few months ago...just a lot less tension and a lot more fun. I want him to realize what he will be missing if he D's me.
Although there are moments that i feel "unloveable", i do believe that if my M should end, i won't be alone. I believe that everything happens for a reason and one day i will understand the reason for this.
I have good days, and bad days. And the bad days hurt like hell. But, as i told hope, i think we have to experience the bad days in order to appreciate the good ones.
Thanks for checking in with me...your feedback is always very insightful.
