Same here. And you know, I think H. is not entirely ok with the idea that I would be moving several hours away and we wouldn’t see each other anymore (or certainly not as often). Even on Sun. during our fairly negative phone call, when I mentioned that if we sell, I’m leaving this area and we would not see one another, he commented, “Not necessarily” about it. Imdi, here is something to ponder. Ask yourself what kind of a R. you want in your future. A committed husband, children? Things like that, right? Perhaps this is not what your H. wants. I say this because my H., despite o.w., tells me he does not want to be married to anyone right now. (And I’ll tell you something—if we D, I think he will be too scared to ever take that leap again.) I don’t know if my H. is capable of living up to that title anymore. Certainly not right now; maybe not ever again. We may actually have to accept that they cannot be faithful, committed husbands. I don’t want to imagine it either, but it might be why they don’t return to us.
Trying was right, too; he knows you want him to call you. By not doing so, you are showing him one more hour, one more minute of strength. That is powerful, Imdi. You do have power, even though you don’t feel it. You are doing really well, my friend. Don’t stop now. We are in this together, ok?
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
