Hey Frank- I have been reading alot of your posts, and I have to say that it has been helpful. I agree that NYS is attacking. It is one thing to have a difference of opinion, but those differences need to be addressed with respect especially here of all places.

Anyways, as to your W's strange behavior; since my D I have gone thru strange behavior's opposite to all of my past. It is part of trying to figure out who you are and who you want to be. Not all of those experiments bring us pride and happiness as hers obviously hasn't. At least her "escape" did not include the OM. That R may be starting to tarnish a bit for her, let's hope.

I have made the mistake of going out with my friends a couple of nights and trying to keep up with their drinking. As one who doesn't normally drink, that was a big mistake. On Halloween, I got so drunk it scared me to the point I started to think about alcohol poisoning and wonder if I should go to the hospital, but I just kept making myself throw up and my friends kept checking on me and we all knew I would be fine so no, I didn't go to the hospital. It is natural when your mind is clouded by a drug of any kind to get a little scared if it is not your usual experience. I too was humiliated by my situation and did not want to go home, couldn't imagine my son or BF seeing me in that condition. So I stayed the night at my friends' house. I can understand to an extent why your W may not have been very visibly emotional in the morning. There are so many emotions that she has never experienced before that it can be overwhelming. It was easier for you to recognize what you were experiencing and express it because you are going through so much personal growth. Unfortunately, she still is not at the same level and is lost. Give her some time, just be supportive and caring as you already are. These actions will speak volumes to her.