Frank_D: You handled that situation just fine. I actually have a history of unusual heart palpitations that are brought on by NOTHING, they can hit me in a dead sleep and last for up to 14 hours. 15 minutes of a slightly rapid heartbeat is nothing, believe me. And that is also confirmed by Cardiologists I have seen. All the symptoms that signal danger in my case, are the same ones that you were looking for and did not see. You did fine.
There is a much bigger story here. You were indeed given a unique insight into just how she used to feel. It stunned you. It brought you to tears and you finally, truly understood the damage you caused in your drinking days. THAT is priceless. So often our remorse is only triggered by the emotions that we see in our loved ones, but mostly it is triggered by what we ourselves lose. You have been where I have been. I understand what you mean. It's an all new kind of regret when the shoe is really on the other foot. Not everyone gets that experience so don't forget it. It was given to you for a purpose. One day you will know why. Maybe soon, maybe not.
Your wife is still so confused. I see that at times you two share such tenderness. Know that no one else is going to know her like you do. Not even massage boy across the country. He only knows her in her confusion. I really hope she can scale this wall in front of her. You two could be in such a better place...
