First off I'm not eager to have a baby. It was a decision we made together to try and have a child. What was bothering me about that was the fact of instead of talking to me about why he decided not to was up set me, it was that he just made the decision without me. We have since then come to the conclusion that a child right now would not be good considering finances are a little low, we live in a 1 bedroom apt, and he is going back to school so he can get a degree in criminal justice while trying to get into the police acadamy. We got married because we things were getting better. He knew that I was working on trust issues and he was right there with me. The fact that I can't seem to get over them after almost 3 years is making him mad and to be honest isn't making me all that happy. He cheated on me almost 3 years ago, and not since. We've only been married 6 months so there is a time frame here. He does not try to control who my friends are, as a matter of fact he has been trying to get me to go out, and I just have a hard time making friends, I always have. Everyone I work with is older than me (like my parents age or older) and all my friends from before don't live any closer than 3 hours away. I work 2 jobs and it's hard for me to find time to do anything. I told my H that I wanted to go out on a "date" this weekend like we used to and he he agreed after a few days of telling me he didn't know. This whole problem started on New Years Day. That's when we started to really fight about it. It is to the point now that we are getting along better, but a physical relationship isn't there. When Iapologized to him about my part in it he didn't want to here it. He did however apologize for hurting my feelings last night and he told me he loved me. I will try to get out and do something by myself in the next couple of days because I have time off.
