Hi ZB... Happy Birthday!!!!! I know you are trying really hard to come to a place of acceptance after hearing " the diagnosis"...but that is such a hard thing to do. I think it's good you are being realistic about the situation, and I do know how much work and energy you have put into the M, both of which make you feel like it's time to give up.
But let me tell you this... I have done work with terminal patients, and the one thing everyone needs is hope. In the past, we have talked about setting very small goals...goals that can be accomplished in a short time span, and are measurable and not vague. Perhaps you can come up with a small idea to focus on and keep you going to keep at bay those horrible feelings of despair.
