Well, I liken this process to being sick. You know certain times of day are worse when you're sick and once you figure out when those times are, you take medicine to get through them. It seems like when I am at work, I am relatively ok these days. Usually I don't talk to my W during the day (well I used to call her all the time...no more). She called today and caught me in a good moment. Innocuous call but...
M: Hello, whats up? W: Nothing much, just wanted to tell you...(financial stuff, pleasent though) M: Ok, great. W: Also, I made a hair appointment for this afternoon (doesn't affect me because it's when I am at work/kids in school). I just need to get it trimmed. I love the length but it's getting a little ratty. M: Yea, it's been hard not to notice how good you've been looking lately. W: Thanks. W: Ok, how do I get there again...
I know, this is hardly worth posting and loses something in the translation. The important part was that I was smiling the whole conversation and I know that she heard that. The day after a date with the OM I am never that cheerful. The other important thing was that I didn't even have to try. I genuinely felt ok with myself and her. I'm sure the ride is about to plunge into one of those dark tunnels that goes underwater, but for now I feel good. Hell, I even resisted getting angry at the fact she's making herself look better FOR him...er....herself...lol.
