So funny, I rely on YOU for inspiration. Damnit, there we go again cheerleading each other! lol. Anyway, thanks. I know it can get frustrating (not for me) for us all to keep feeling the same things, keep reading the same things posted, and keep saying the same things to each other but I for one need to keep being reassured that I am doing the right thing because every, well almost every, fiber of my being resists this path. As I get support from you all, I am learning to give it to myself. I have mentioned that before this I never liked the idea of therapy. I have also rejected religion as a substitute for other addictions (i.e. replacing heroin with Jesus) but I now see the fallacy in that line of thinking. One thing (in our case, our low self esteem and codependency on our WAS) is debilitating and does nothing to further our self discovery. While the others; church, posting here, leaning on friends, may be still focusing on getting strength from "without" rather than from "within" it is ultimately with the goal of making ourselves stronger and eventually able to stand on our own two feet. We eventually see these institutions as choices rather than necessity and they bring us additional happiness, not our ONLY happiness. There, that's my philosophy for the day. I don't know if it really means anything. Today is a normal day. Heart hurts a bit, but should be ok. I will do my best to inspire you, but you know you are the inspiration right now.
