Quote: And...I'll be honest. A part of me doesn't 'want' to forgive him. That sounds very immature, doesn't it.
No, not really. It's honest. I am thinking these days a lot about just ending the thing on my own. I know that is not in the best interest of my boys, me, or maybe even my W, but it's my feeling right now. I won't act on it though. I just feel right now. I think it's getting on the nerves of some people here. It seems like I am spinning my wheels but in the weeks I have been here I have received and followed TONS of advice. I try to post my progress here but like so many others, I tend to post more about the negatives about my sitch than the positives. I will work to mend that. Just keep your eye on the prize(s) of building up yourself so you can be the foundation for your own success, and with any luck at all, marriage.
