Well, the weekend's goals were pretty much achieved. Minimal time spent thinking about sitch. I did pretty well with the "as if" acting, so much so that I think she may think I'm over it. Who knows, but I am relatively pain free tonight and have been most of the day. The only emotional moment came at the strangest time. I was washing our cars and when I was washing my wife's brand new car I got angry at the fact that she may walk away from this with a new car and I'll be stuck with my 7 year old truck. As far as interaction with my W, we all went to the mall, had lunch and came home to do some housework (and wash cars) together. It was a nice family day out. At the end of the day I walked up behind my wife, similar to yesterday and sincerely thanked her for spending the time with us, gave her the little peck again and walked away. I am doing those things more because first of all, it's not like me to do it, and also to send the message that I appreciate what she IS doing for us, even though I resent the hell out of her for what she ISN'T doing for us. Again, I really don't care if the perception is bad on her part. I am doing it because I want to and I feel it's the right thing to do. OH, and there is one more thing. I didn't wear my wedding band this weekend, or if I did, I wore it on the other hand. I have never taken it off for more than a few seconds in over 8 years and it has been off for 2 days now. I will put it back on to go to work but that's only because I don't really want to get into it with them. I didn't ask you if this was a good idea because again, it seems like the right thing to do now all things considered. She hasn't worn hers in a LONG time. She always had some excuse, but I now see it for what it was. Anyway, it is not a permanent change, just something I felt like doing, especially while I was out alone. Funny how much you notice, and get noticed when you're "single". lol.
So I am going to watch a little TV, go to bed and probably wake up feeling like...well...lets not guess, shall we. I predict tomorrow will be a good day. I know there will be a lot more bad ones, but it's time to start having good ones again!
