My weekends are terrible too. My H usually goes out Friday or Saturday after work, says he his with the guys drinking, says he will be home at a resonable hour, doesn't call until very late to let me know "he is too drunk to drive, so he is going to sleep in his car." Come on, we live in Chicago, it would be a little chilly, no? Last weekend I pulled the 3 kids out of bed and drove the the parking lot he was supposedly in - not there - never answered his cell phone either..... Whatever...I too have been doing the devils advocate thing as my H has also said that he has felt this way for years. I have only been going thru this since September and I cannot take one more minute. He is also one to hold in his feelings and it has been very difficult for him to even tell me as much as he has.
Tonight is movie night with the kids, we put on the surround sound and eat a lot of munchies. He knows this. If he comes home - fantastic! If he doesn't, I will not let it ruin our fun!
Here are some words to ponder that I wrote in my journal this morning: - Don't magnify that which you with to diminish. - When you find yourself in a hole, stop digging. - Less is more. - The harder you try to hold on to someone, the harder they fight to get away. - and in Michelle's words; Will this take me closer to, or further away from, my ultimate goal? - Self-control!
Relax, Appreciate, Be Calm, Laugh, Enjoy, Be secure, Be loving, Be loved, Don't personalize, Don't ASSume, Accept and Be grateful.
