Yea, but it's the part about not grabbing that damn rope and pulling until my hands bleed that gets me feeling like I'm not doing the right thing.
UPDATE: Well, these days me and the W have very little contact during the day while I am at work. That is unusual for us, even since the A was confessed to. I don't know what to make of it. Is she with him all day now? Anyway, I know I have to stop thinking about it. I really do but...er...there's that "but" again...ok I just need to stop. Other than that, not much to report. That will change since I have my therapy session in about an hour. I will report the happenings.
On another note, and to fill in a little more about my sitch/W, one of the things I think about is how my W would approach an end to her A. She is the kind of person who almost NEVER apologizes for anything. Instead she just makes sure she does something to let you know she's sorry. For instance, if we have an argument where she knows she said some uncalled for, or wrong things, she would never just come out and say "Hey look, I'm sorry for last night. Love you." She would instead just be extra nice to me in a way that I know is a result of her being sorry. What worries me is that what if she does end this but never gets around to verbalizing her apology, or worse yet, never feels sorry. Of course this is a kind of perverse optimism on my part. Oh well, I suppose any optimism at this point is good, eh?
