Well, last night was pretty good. From the bad night out with the OM my wife obviously was upset. She stayed up late and had a couple drinks (not really good). When she came to bed, for the first time in almost 2 weeks, she curled up to me and cried. Then she said she needed some water (really didn't but maybe embarrassed). I let her go but followed after a couple minutes. She was lying on the couch listening to her iPod crying. I started to lift her back off the couch to slide in behind her but she sat up accommodating before I could finish I slid in behind her and just held her for about 15 minutes. Then she did something really strange. She put her ear buds in my ears and played a song for me. I really tried hard to understand the song because it obviously meant something to her. It was a Sarah McLachlan song I know but I will have to go through my iPod to figure out which one and look up the lyrics. Anyway, she then got up, asked me if I could take the kids to school (of course I said ok), put her iPod back on and went to the bathroom. She wandered around for a few minutes, went outside for a smoke and then came back to bed. I held her until she slept.
This morning we slept in a bit (for me anyway since I usually leave before anyone else gets up) and once again she slid next to me in bed. I rubbed her back, held her and then got up to help get the kids ready. When she came down she was playful with the kids, seeming to be genuinely happy for the first time in a long time. She showered, I did and before I left, she interrupted brushing her teeth to give me a hug. I left.
Now, I love what happened. It all seems great, but learning from you all I know that my glee may be short lived. She did not break things off with the OM so far as I know and when she does see him again I suppose I will be back in the dumps. I will say that I have a renewed DBing energy and will try hard right now to NOT do more of the same as I used to do (obsess, talk too much) and just pay attention to what I need to do to continue to remind her that I am the one to be with. I can't say I'm totally happy because this whole thing has made me a little cynical about the R and if anything I am guarded. I really don't want to get hurt all over again and if I let myself feel that things are on their way back and they are not, then I am gutted once again. As we say, time will tell.
