What now-did what I was supposed to!

[Tim297181]

Wow isn't the rollercoaster ride fun!
Before I start to type I have to remind myself that the "glass is half full", and there is some positive things that are happening! But last nite and especially this morning I felt the "Big Pink Elephant" that represents what is going on in our R amd what is happening with the OM grew a 1000 pounds and neither my wife or I will say anything to each other about it!
She is still pretty cold and distant. Last nite before bed she said "I am trying so hard and I don't have to!"
I have been trying so hard to show that I care and I guess kill her with kindness. She seems to be in a dark place right now and I want so bad to talk to her about it and find out WTF is going on!!!!!!!!
We also had a little pillow talk last nite and I told her that all I want is her to be happy, and her response was
"What about Tim what makes Tim happy?"
I had to pause for a moment and I responded with
"Being her with you and the kids, and share my life with her. The kids being happy and her being happy fufill me and that is what makes me happy!"
Not much said after that but kiss good nite!
The big thing for me is I want her to come to me and say I love you, I want to talk and make things better! But she hasn't. Even this morning I pushed by saying I love you a few many times hoping she would respond! That is what hurts the most!
Anyways I have to have patience I keep going forward! It is tough with such a big part of my life being in the dark...not knowing what she is really thinking and what is the status with the OM! HOPE! POSITIVE!
Any words of wisdom out there?