Lass, I'm feeling guilty about my contribution to the R problems. For sooooooooo long, I have tuned into H's with a laser like focus and now that he has changed, I'm left with...my own crapola. All the stuff I did in the past is haunting me. I've already taken care of it. I no longer do it, but I did it then and just why is that anyway? Furthermore, if I did it then, what's to say that I won't do it again in the future. These, and more, are the ridiculous thoughts that are pulsing through my gray matter.
It's not like I'm obssessed or anything, just feeling bad for the years in which I was anything but an exemplary wife. Could we avoided this? Probably not. His own stuff was too strong. But I'm certain that I prolonged it and that has me feelin guilty.
Because, I really don't have to tell you folks this, I really harangued my H for a while. Made his life a living hell. I'm sorry for that H.
