Hanging on/The Long Haul #7

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I believe no one changed the calendar and Friday the 13th is here a week late. I woke up sad and lonely, have not done that for a while. Maybe it was because H was roaming around, but doesn't ever come in and lay down with me anymore. The Farm Show is on the radio, and today, of all days when I wake up sad already, this song plays during the cotton pickin' farm show.

I didn't see the fire burn to ashes
Couldn't feel the winds of change
I was lost inside the passion
Blinded by a memory of a flame

Guess I should of felt it when you touched me
Should of seen it in your eyes
I believed you really loved me
Why can't i believe you said goodbye

Why is the last one to know
The first one to cry and the last to let go
Why is the one left behind the one left alone
With no one to hold
The last one to know

Now it would be easier to face the morning
If you were holding me tonight
But you left me without a warning
Holding on to a heartache while she's holding you tight

Why is the last one to know
The first one to cry and the last to let go
Why is the one left behind the one left alone
With no one to hold
The last one to know

Sucks. I cried in the bathroom today. I haven't done that since...???? Alright, cowgirl up! Crying must take a long time, I was running late. Walked out to start my truck, and my horse met me!! Huh? Her and the other 4 that are in the same corral. I must've had a blond moment last night and not closed the gate properly when I was done riding. They all went back in easy enough. My short drive to work was filled with 2 semi trucks and 2 cars playing dodge and dart, stupid drivers. There has been lots of growth and construction around town, and my 7 mile/7 minute drive days are over but I haven't adjusted yet. Walked in the door and my desk phone is ringing, someone used the coffee pot late yesterday and didn't clean up after themselves, got the front of my shirt dirty already, the early morning orders are all screwed up so I had to rework what the staff should have finished yesterday, and here I am venting. Projects and deadlines, gotta earn my pay. How's YOUR Friday the 13th? geewhiz.

Got that out of my system, will refill my coffee cup, add flavored creamer, and enjoy the day.

I wonder if I really am blinded by the memory of a flame. It's supposed to be great weather today, I think I feel a fever coming on...