Hanging on/The Long Haul #7

[WCW]

Breakthrough? I wouldn't go that far, I am too guarded to call it that. But the wall cracked just a bit over the weekend. Next I guess is seeing if the crack gets bigger of if it gets patched up and stonger. Been here before, even further along, but it's another start. I'll take it. And yes, while computer shopping, he even looked for me and moved aside to give me room to see the puter and join in the decision making. Pretty neat!

Boy, I am really bouncing around thoughts in my head today. Geez, one generally nice day with hubby and I’m all over the spectrum again. But still okay, not anxious, but a good sort of okay. Wondering what’s next, how will tonight be, tomorrow? Can we have a string of more than one nice normal day? I'm still processing all the 'nice' things from Sunday. Don't push, don't get too strong on expectations, take what's nice, let the rest roll away like melting snowballs.

I hear love songs today, I don’t want to go gushy again. I want to remember how I felt Saturday night going out on my own, and crankin’ up the tunes and singing along with this song –
Somebody's gonna give you
A lesson in leavin'
Somebody's gonna give you back
What you've been givin'
And I hope that I'm around
To watch 'em knock you down
It's like you to love 'em and leave 'em
Just like you loved me and left me
It's like you to do that sort of thing
Over and over again
You're a fool-hearted man

This morning I set up a ‘guest’ account on ‘my’ desktop computer so H could use it for email, etc. He does have an online business that he needs to check constantly. I told him just before I left, that I set it up and left it open for him to use until he can get his laptop configured and running. He didn’t say much, just oh. Could just be it was shock and awe, and he didn't know what else to say. I’ve become fairly protective of the computer, just as he is with his laptop and anything that he feels is ‘his’.

One of our 4 dogs gets a treat from me every morning, just him, it’s been that way since he was a puppy. Today, he must have been in a hurry and one of the very few mornings that he didn’t wait for his treat. I was walking out to get in my truck and leave for work, and I thought doggone.