Hanging on/The Long Haul #7

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Thanks Martha. Little little steps, I got very discouraged today thinking about our past years and how good things were, in my mind anyway. And how far we are from that now. And if we'll ever make it back. But, plugging away at it. Right now I'm starting to stew because H isn't coming to eat the nice meal I've made, steak, potatoes, corn, fresh bread. I don't do this all too often! And when he does come in, I think he's going to say it's too late to eat such a big meal. I can hear it coming, maybe I'm wrong. And if he doesn't eat, then I have more leftovers for next weeks lunch!

Here's a few more good things -
- sold a horse! WE went to deliver it today
- H finished spreading the pile of gravel, finally, conditions permitted
- I needed grain for tonights chores, H must've been watching me and was right handy with equipment to help me haul it
- H initiated conversation twice today
- I told H thanks twice today for things he did

Of course I can list negative thoughts along with this, things that make me feel uneasy, sad, uncomfortable. But, not tonight.