Tonight seems to be a night of introspection and retrospection for me. I started reviewing my thread, my story, from the beginning. I only got as far as the first two strands.
And right now, my heart is very, very full. It is full of the most amazing amount of gratitude for all of you. I see names who have come and gone, who provided a word of kindness or advice when I most needed it, but have seemingly left the bb. I see names and faces of people with whom I started this journey with, and some of the "village elders". Some of us are still wondering if this works to rescue and rebuild our R/M. Some of us have fairly successfully rebuilt. Some have D'd but are still workimg and some have D'd and are building new lives.
But I am amazed. I am astonished at the depth of love and commitment I see in the postings here. The anguish and the unspeakable joy. And I am moved to tears.
You all, each and every one of you, posters and lurkers alike, are what really bring hope to the rest of the community here. It's not the baby steps we see in our WAS's. We bring hope and peace to one another. I am humbled to be a part of it, and I thank God for bringing us all together.
I've been thinking a lot about blogs lately, for obvious reasons, and I've been reading some, both written both by people I know and total strangers. While this bb is somewhat like a blog, in other ways it is so very different and so much better.
Blogs are often tedious and mundane ramblings, sometimes perhaps posted by people who feel they have no real voice in their real lives. They come to the internet to throw out random thoughts in the hopes that someone, somewhere in the ether some random, faceless stranger will hear them.
But this bb is so much more. We come here with a clear purpose and motivated by love and anguish. We come together in a community of like-mindedness that love is a verb and that commitment is for life.
I am in awe. Thank you for giving so much of yourselves to me. I hope I have in turn given to all of you.
