I know Slowly is right. I knew it when I read it. It's what my instinct tells me now. I find great comfort that all that I've learned the past year is now serving me through this new development. "Life-stunting." Wow...what a picture that paints, eh? We should all be more vigilant of life-stunting behavior. Thanks for sharing that.
(Wow. Maybe I'm an emotional grown-up now, eh? )
Today was a good day. I never thought I'd say that after the way I was feeling this morning.
I had a very busy day at work, and that helped tremendously. Thank goodness for GAL skills, eh? That and work I love.
SO and I met for our usual Thursday lunch and had just a lovely, normal conversation. I spent last night at his place and the same was also true -- just a nice, normal, low-key time. We were both exhausted from the lack of sleep the previous night, so we both welcomed the quiet time. I think we both made up for our lack of sleep.
I'm still keeping my feelings of anger at bay right now. And that's okay. It's not a supression, which is definitely good. I am acknowledging to myself that they are there, but I'm not dwelling on them. Quite frankly, I have more important things to do than sit around and dwell on the past.
Wow.
So here is what I know right now:
When you're not sure what to do, focus on yourself and the GAL that you've built. This serves you very well in any sort of crisis and helps one stay grounded in reality.
If your SO is willing to stay connected to you through a rough patch, don't look a gift horse in the mouth. Be willing to roll with it. It's good for both of you to remain level-headed and grounded in what you really want.
As K said on his thread, keep your eye on the horizon. What is your greater goal? If you can keep your eye on this, it will serve as your compass, your guide, through the rough patches.
Trust is still a choice. It's a choice I have to evaluate for myself; no one else can define this for me. But I can live with making that decision because I know what I want to build.
No matter what, I will be okay. Not only will I be okay, I will be fantastic because of all of the other blessings I have in my life (and shame on me for taking them all for granted at Ground Zero.) <insert stern look here>
I think that's all I have to say on that for now. (Paraphrasing one of my heroes, Forrest Gump. Really. Think about it/him. How much kinder or patient could any one human being be? )
Thank you for your prayers, K. And I'm sorry I missed you guys in Vegas! I would have loved joining you! Do I get to see the pic?
I STILL think we need to plan a Chicago thing! (Gabe? Kevin? Hey Slow, wanna come to the States? WCW, you're not horribly far from Chitown...)
More than sweet dreams, I wish for each of you peace tonight.
We should all be more vigilant of life-stunting behavior. Thanks for sharing that. 
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