You seem to me like a man who knows his heart and respects himself enough to protect it. The first thing I'd like to do is congratulate you on work very well done. Congratulate you on asking yourself the hard questions, doing the hard work, and consistenly practicing being true to yourself and your beliefs, even through times of uncertainty.
I like how you seem genuinely okay with it not working out, and I know that feeling can only come from a place of feeling whole and complete within yourself.
And of course, being a believer in love, I love that the two of you now have a genuine first chance together at something new, fresh, vital and real, as opposed to calling it a second chance at something old or forced. I love how more of your interactions with her are starting to feel light and natural.
It's great to hear that she's now initiating some things and that you are open to trusting / believing her. Perhaps now she needs you to be strong and true more than ever, so all I can say is just keep on being yourself and we both know everything will be fine.
I also hear where you're at in having thoughts about putting this board behind you. If that's the case I'll look forward to your parting words with joy. If you decide to stick around, that'd be great too as you are indeed a beacon for I and others to follow.
Wow this almost feels like a good-bye and the only thing I really know about you is that your circumstances and attitudes (altitudes) seem so similar to my own.
One last thing before I let you go, too.
Quote: My vision of how things would ever work out between us was one of multiple uncomfortable dates, slowly starting to reconnect, and eventually getting there as we worked through problems.
Though my ex and I have now been apart four years, I still have similar visions as those you have expressed. Today I will thank God for this sign from you that if I continue to believe, and if I do what needs to be done, then my visions may yet come true.
