This post will hopefuly capture the good, bad and indifferent parts of our romantic life and relationships in 2005 and look at the expectations for 2006. Let me start:
With respect to 2005, my romantic life with my wife is best described as indifferent - ml twice in the year (duty sex at that), deep kissing once, other duty encounters - a few times. All in all a typical year in the monk household.
As for relationships - Unable to meet expectations of wife - quite honestly still not sure what she feels is required of me in this area. Being yelled at doesn't seem to help me understand what she wants of me ( it has only been 25+ years after all)
Economically a great year - funded wife's numerous trips with her friends and our travelling time together as well as many large purchases and retirement savings
Remainder of family - great year with kids, parents and sibblings - better and more frequent contact with all.
Outlook for 2006 - likely more of the same. Wife has no interest in regaining sexual interest. I have no clue how to deal with wife's constant emotional needs - when asked I am told how inadequate I am generally but no specific things to work on. I have given up asking now as I don't enjoy being ridiculed - so no change likely.
Goals for 2006 - try and be happy with my lot in life, obtain satisfaction from relationship with other family members, friends and from work. Don't dwell on sexless marriage as this will not change.
