It's H who is saying "NO WAY" to a 9:30 bedtime. ... So, then S5 asked if we could play to see who comes in second. I said no, H said yes. They continued to play.

Heather, thanks for having me realize it's really H's bedtime programming that needs rewiring.

Hopefully our counselor isn't a fan of porn

Counselors are to be impartial. The deal is to see if that habit is destructive or not. But counselors vary.

He sent me his resume to turn over. However, now I'm getting cold feet. My place of work is my haven, my refuge from him and all our M problems. I can't imagine working in the same company if we divorced.

Yeah, rewrite his resume.

I keep wanting to move forward with all these big dreams, things that would be great if WE were great.

Those are just dreams. That's a fantasy, as you know what the reality is. That's the romantic in you. Not saying there's no room for romance, just saying get your head out of that cloudy place. It's a "What if angels danced on pinheads" sort of thing. Dancing, big house, et al, are all adjuncts to the base relationship.